please pray for my daughter...

This might seem like an odd spot to do this, but I'm asking those of you who visit this site, to please say a prayer for my daughter, K. She is having a procedure today that requires she go under general anesthesia for about 15 minutes. The actual "surgery" is only about five minutes BUT, she's never had any type of anesthesia, and I'm really nervous about it.

I don't know why this time is making me so nervous. My son had to have a fairly major urology surgery when he was barely one. I wasn't half as nervous about that one as I am about this one. She has what is known as "labial fusions" - men who are reading, you may want to stop now. Basically, from my understanding, the body is looking at the opening as a "wound" and keeps "healing itself", so the doctor will go in today and open it back up. No stitches are required and she'll be a little sore for a few days when she goes potty.

The amazing thing is that she hasn't been complaining about it at all. Our pediatrician said it's mind boggling that she hasn't been screaming whenever she goes to the bathroom. That helps me to know that she is a really strong little girl. But, I'm still scared. I'm really scared.

What if? What if she doesn't wake up? That's a horrible thing to think, I know, but all evening, that's what I've been thinking. I cannot imagine my life without her. Daughters just have a special place in our lives. I honestly just LOVE spending time with her. She's so much fun! I've spent the past two and a half hours crying at my computer. Sending emails to friends, asking them to remember her tomorrow. To remember my husband and I. Wondering if I'm feeling this way because my intuition is telling me to cancel the surgery? Am I PMS-ing? Am I sleep deprived? Why am I freaking out like this? Maybe I'm just ultra sensitive because I, as a female, can't imagine what it is that they're going to be doing to her later today. I don't know.

Waiting in the hospital waiting room has got to be one of the most awful experiences any parent can go through. When my son had his surgery, they had given us an idea as to when they would be finished. That time came and went. I started panicking! Finally, a nurse came out to tell us he was fine, the surgery went fantastic and that our doctor would be out in a few minutes. The floodgates opened!! This mommy really thought for a moment or two, that things had not gone well and that I might not see my little boy alive again.

So, if you think about it, please say a prayer for us today. I truly appreciate it. I'm sure I've shared too much personal information here, but more than anything, I need to get it off my chest. I have to get up in four hours, so I'm going to go snuggle with my little princess. Goodnight for now.

Seriously, are you kidding me??

Why is it news that Katie Holmes ran the New York City Marathon?? Does anyone really care????????????????????????????????????????????????

Cute girl and all, but come on. This is not really newsworthy. Congrats, sure! That's really hard and so cool that she finished, but does it really warrant publicity?

Whatever.

Show it to me on ET but don't bombard my inbox and websites with this "breaking news", puhleeeeze.

Enough rant for now.

Fall Back!

Well, we fell back last night; or, rather, this morning, right? I love time change Sunday in the fall - that extra hour - mmmmm. Makes my week! Although, when you spend every spare second on the computer, that hour really gets eaten up quickly. I think that the time changes are really rough on kids, though. That's been my experience. Every time - regardless of if we're 'springing forward or falling back' - my kids act like terrors for about a week after! They can't sleep at night and they wake up at the butt crack of dawn! It's awful.

I did have a great weekend. Hope you all did, too. It was a super busy weekend, with a school Christmas Village - to raise money for the school, kind-of a crafts fair sort of thing, a birthday party, church, had a girlfriend over, etc., etc. But, all in all it was great. I went to Hallmark and got tons of FREE stuff....and bought some new foundation at the MAC counter - loving it! I'm a totally girly-girl. I LOVE makeup. In fact, my girlfriend who came over last night, we spent a couple of hours just going through my old makeup bags and deciding what to keep and what to pitch. It was very empowering somehow. Sorry, Dev, if you were bored out of your mind!

We are experiencing "cold" front here with temps in the mid-upper 70's! It is absolutely HEAVENLY. So, I will be taking the kiddos to the park tomorrow and spending as much time outside as possible, before it's back in the 90s again.

Have a FABULOUS MONDAY!

it's beginning to look a lot like Christmas

Everywhere you go......

YIKES!!!

I'm not going to sit down and count how many days until Christmas but, gosh, getting a little stressed about it. September last year I was almost done with my shopping! (I had money then) - this year?? Nada.

Every store at the mall is decorated already.

Macy's had their trees up a month ago! Right now, before the entire world, I am committing to not go crazy trying to get gifts for everyone, finding the "perfect" gifts, setting the "perfect" table, decorating the "perfect" tree, creating the "perfect" family portrait Christmas card, etc., etc., etc.

Let's remember what it is all about, people! Hard to do that when your kids are continually saying "i want that one" over and over and over again. Is it me or are there more and more commercials playing on Nickelodeon right now? Every two seconds there is an ad for some sort of doll or race car! I can't take it anymore and it's only November 2nd. Augh!

I'm not the grinch. I will not be the grinch. I LOVE this time of year. It's my favorite. BUT - for the sake of sanity, I need to set some boundaries, set some limits. In fact, I'm so very much NOT the grinch, I'm going to listen to some Christmas music - and just so you know, I was eyeballing the eggnog at the grocery store tonight. Mmmmmmmmmmmm.

The day after...

So exhausted. High on candy. And that's just ME. We had a fantastic time trick or treating. My 'rents came down to walk with us and we all had a great time. The kids got along famously and there were no bad moods or temper tantrums.

Went to the Children's Place to buy Alice in Wonderland some tights and found the most adorable dragon costume for $4.99!! Bought it just to have for dress up. The little guy decided that's what he wanted to be for trick or treat. It was a BIG HIT! We went to dinner beforehand (in costume, of course!) - and the manager of the restaurant brought out a gift certificate to Learning Express because, and I quote, "your costume is so cool"!! All that was missing was the fire breathing.

Here are a couple pictures of the big night.




You can't tell by the pictures, but my little girl actually let me put sponge curlers in her hair yesterday - when we left the house her hair was gorgeous!! But, since we have a Tropical Storm hovering around, any curl quickly disappeared once we went outside. We even did mascara (just a little) and some pink lipstick. She thought she was "IT"!! Too much fun. And on my little dragon - yes, that's green face paint, but it started to sweat off. Overall, though, the rain held off until we got back in the car and it wasn't too hot! Can't complain.

By the way, I gotta plug the Children's Place again. Geez, when they have a sale, they're not kidding! The costume I bought yesterday is normally $29.50 - it's well made, good fabric, etc., it really is a dangerous place for me because I always find something. They even had boys jeans for $4.99 - but not in the sizes I needed. So if you're near one, you must go check it out.

We're loaded with tons of candy, a fair amount of pictures, and really good memories. It's an early bedtime tonight for sure! That's what Halloween is all about.