Tuesday, May 29, 2012

14 weeks down...6 more to go...

After today, I only have SIX more chemo treatments to endure! While it may sound like a lot, when you consider that I had a total of 20 weeks of treatment, 6 more is a cake walk. I still have a very long way to go - 52 weeks of Herceptin infusions, two-three more outpatient surgeries and the agony of growing back my hair.  But, this, the scary part will soon be over.

This past week I've been asked by a few friends the same question, "how has this whole process changed you?"  This is a very hard question to answer...so much has changed. I've changed physically, emotionally and spiritually.  My priorities have changed. My attitudes and prejudices have changed.

I think I'm quicker to laugh. I think I'm a bit more patient with people (except when driving!). I'm definitely more protective of my time and that of my family. I'm quicker to say no to things I don't want to do.

While having cancer is a real drag...it's hard...it's ugly and painful and scary, today, I wouldn't change this experience for anything (wow!- not something I would've thought six months ago).  I've learned so much about myself. Like, I'm so much stronger than I ever thought I could be. I truly believe that I can do anything, can get through anything.  I've met so many wonderful people...the people that I meet daily are so amazing and I now get to be part of that 'club'... the survivors.

Princess K and I cuddling on a rainyday
My children have had the privilege of seeing what love really looks like in watching their daddy take care of their mommy. They've seen their mom at her weakest and most vulnerable. They've seen her act like a goofball, swinging her wig around to "I'm sexy and I know it." They've witnessed the generosity of strangers. They've seen the love of friends and family pouring out on our little family.

The lessons my family has learned, and continues to learn, are priceless. While I wish I had never been diagnosed with cancer, I'm thankful for this moment. Thankful for miracles and thankful that God's grace is always enough.


 PS. I'm thinking I'd like to put a team together for the Susan G. Komen Race for the Cure Walk/Run in Miami on October 20th. As a team, we would need to commit to raising $1000 - I think that's an easy goal...if you're interested in joining me, let me know!!! If we start fundraising now, it'll happen!!


crosswaysnet said...

April... I don't know what else I could possibly say that might mean anything other than "You are lovely." I'm so glad God chose you for my brother. I'm so proud of him as your helpmeet and servant. I'm proud of your gentle humility.

I'm glad I get to claim you as family. My love to you, the kids and Ry.


Lori Ziegler said...

You are one amazing strong woman of God. Honored and grateful to have met you. Praying for your family always. COUNT me in on team.

Carrie said...

Love you. So proud God saw fit to have us share a small part of life. :)

Sheryl Bullock said...

April, I love your sweet and surrendering attitude. It is a blessing and encouragement to me as I'm sure it is to others. It's not easy to find the "good" in the difficult, ugly, and painful stuff in life. Yet, you've done it and expressed it so beautifully. My prayers continue for you and Ryan. I'm proud of Ryan too and grateful he's been so supportive. And your kids...this stuff is hard for parents because we want to shelter our children when they are young. Yet we watch God take difficulties in their lives and use it for His glory and their good. Thanks for setting such a beautiful example for all of us.

Joycy Ann Lacombe said...

April you truly are a gift to those who know you! You've shared your talent with us for some many years and now your life & I can say today that I am better off having known you <3. I am definitely down to be on your team in October and for life ;)) love you!!