Tuesday, December 27, 2011

and so it goes...

Not a lot to report..I've met with my team of doctors, had an MRI, cut my hair really short and have tried to not let cancer be the only thing I talk or think about.

We finally told the kids...they were really good about it. Princess K thought I was contagious and Little Prince thought it was hilarious that I'm going to be bald. They both have definite opinions too on whether or not I wear a wig or scarf...I really didn't think they'd care, but they do!

I have a PET/CT scan this week to see if the cancer has spread. My MRI shows nodes affected BUT that could be residual "activity" from the biopsy. And, surgery is two weeks from tomorrow.

Emotionally, I think I'm doing rather well...waiting to have my breakdown moment, actually. Praying that doesn't happen. I'm blessed to have so many people who love me and are praying for me.

I read this in a devotional the other day and cant get it out of my mind..."The deepest level of worship is praising God in spite of pain, thanking God during a trial, trusting him when tempted, surrendering while suffering, and loving him when he seems distant." -Rick Warren

My prayer during this season is that I will truly feel God's hand in my life and that I will come out knowing that his strength is perfect.

5 comments:

Rebecca Crea said...

Your sense of humor, level-headedness, and deep faith will get you through this. Trusting God has His healing hands on you every step of the way. I.LOVE.YOU!

Sonjia Imber said...

Loved that quote and can say amen to that level of worship. We are praying for you and trusting God's amazing grace to carry you through each step of the journey. He gives the grace just when you need it and you can rest knowing that He Will because He promised it and His promises are true. Praying for the doctors and nurses who will care for you. May the Lord give them the wisdom and the skill to meet your every need. "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.: Isaiah 41:10
Love you and asking the Lord to go before you, be with you and be your rear-guard...may you sense His Presence in a mighty way. Praying for your family as well.x0x

Kimberly Sanderson said...

Praying for you. God is going to work miracles through you. ((HUGS))

Raybie said...

Praying daily for you and the family. Praying for both miracle and acceptance on what God's will is. Somewhat conflicted on my part. Know you are loved and that we are here for you no matter what!

Lara Graves said...

You are an inspiration. Just heard the news and will be praying for you and your family. Miss singing with you guys and hope you continue to hang in and keep with your positive attitude. Lara